Descions

I am torn with the descion.... do I quit my job that I hate more than anything OR do I continue to work at and be miserable just so we can have the extra money.

I took this job over a year ago and loved it. I worked for a friend of mine at the time and we got along and I enjoyed going to work. I struggled with work in the last months of my pregnancy and she was very compliant with me. I came back from maternity leave and she went on leave a few months later. While off she put me in charge... and she decided shes not coming back.:( I didnt think at the time that would be a big deal but NOW it is!

I switched my hours from being there 4 days a week 4-5 hour shifts to 10  hour days but 2 times a week. With doing this I have weekends off and one extra free day during the week to spend with Justin and my kids... and do hair. Its very nice and I love having the weekends off but I cant stand the thought of going into that place to work. We have a new manager and she has changed things drastically.. she is not a nice person... cant trust people that work there with anything... the owner really doesnt care to know whats happening in her store.

Going to work was supposed to be my  get away from having 3 kids and my chance to be my own person away from being mom.  Its not fun anymore. We have gotten very used to having the extra money to do whatever we want with. If I quit, we obviousy wont have that and I dont know if I could be a "stay at home mom". Wherever I go I would hope they are able to work with my schedule so I continue not to have to worry about daycare.

There is so many things to worry about when you become an adult and have children... sometimes I just want to be a kid again!

Sleeping Beauty

    Sleeping Beauty has graced us with her presence since halloween. Olivia puts the dress on with the crown every morning when she wakes up and wears it throughout the day. Sometimes I let her wear it out if we are just going to the corner store. Usually it comes off when its time to eat dinner or when she is heading to bed.

    She woke up before I did this morning and came upstairs to wake me up. Crying, sad and broken hearted. "Mommy my cwown (crown) broke". She was devastated. It was not a good way to start out a day for a 3 year old. Hopefully daddy can come to the rescue with his ol' standby of super glue to fix it so we can go on with life and not have to worry about her being upset.

    Olivia is the middle child. I dont think she has the "middle child" syndrome. She is so loving and caring. She always tell me "your my friend". Her baby sister Tenley is her friend. She loves everyone and is willing to talk to anybody. She loves giving hugs and cuddling. I am in love with my middle child! She makes me so happy and can always turn a bad moment into a funny one. She always has a funny face or does something funny or even says something that cracks me up.

     I hope she contiues to be loving and caring even as she gets older. If this is what the "middle child" syndrome is like... then I love it!! 

First Time

I feel so weird! I am jumping into the technology based part of life by doing a blog. I am going to try and update this as much as I can. I have a feeling I will forget. :)
I am using this as an outlet.  I have so many things going on in my life that I sometimes I need to share with people or just have a spot where I can let off my chest. I feel this is a place where noone will judge me (at least not my face) and where I can be open and honest and not have to worry about what everyone is feeling,thinking or saying.
This blog will be exciting yet depressing. My life has its share of ups and downs!
I look forward to letting you into my life to see what we are really like as a family and how we keep it together.